Dear Sweet Flint: You Are My Dream

Dear Sweet Flint,

Tonight was one of those nights. The nights I could only dream of before there was you.

As a nanny I would sing babies to sleep, dreaming of the moment I would get to do the same with my baby. I held each of these little darlings as they drifted off to sleep, studying their sweet faces and imagining what it would be like to hold my own little darling.

Tonight I sang you all my favorite lullabies and songs. I studied your face and smelled your sweet baby smell. Your cubby arms, draped around my neck and your squishy, soft cheek pressed up against mine. Keeping the rocking of the chair in tune with your slow, steady, warm breath. It was a perfect moment, a moment that was once a dream.

It's in these precious moments that I wish I could freeze time. You will always be my baby and I will always have room for you in my arms and most importantly, my heart.

You are my dream.

Love,
Mama

Dear Sweet Flint: You Are Our Light

Dear Sweet Flint,

You are the light of our world sweet boy.
We love you so much!

Love,
Mama

Dear Sweet Flint: Before You

Dear Sweet Flint,

What was there, before there was you?

We tell you all day long how much we love you but it isn't often enough that we sing our gratitude for you. You inspire us to do great things, little one. You make me a better person and I love you immensely. You've had a magnificent impact on our lives and we treasure every moment we get to call you ours. I can't believe that it has almost been five months since we first held you in our arms, it feels like you have been with me always. You truly are a gift from God.

Love you to heaven and back,

Mama

Dear Sweet Flint: Simply Love

Dear Sweet Flint,

I asked your Dad tonight what my face looked like the first moment I saw you. He simply said, "love".

I love you so much,

Mama

Dear Sweet Flint: Triangle Fingers

Dear Sweet Flint,

Today has been so much fun with you. You are just the sweetest little boy and we love you so very much! I love getting to see your personality shine through more and more as you grow and learn new things every day.

While nursing, you have been very interested in watching me. You look right in my eyes the entire time and if I look at something you do too. (Sometimes pulling away which doesn't feel the greatest but I forgive you :)

 Then, today while nursing you did the sweetest thing. You looked right at me with those big blue eyes then started 'petting' my arm. I thought it might have been a fluke but nope! You did it the next few times you nursed also. You even reached your chubby little triangle shaped fingers out and touched my cheek ever so gently.

Your hands are just the softest little things and I loved how you traced around my arm, so curious and content to just be with your mama. I held your hand and kissed your itty bitty fingers and you were loving it! I love seeing what new things make you happy.

Love you so much,

Mama

Dear Sweet Flint: I Know You Love Me

Dear Flint,

I know I am your Mama but sometimes I wonder if you know. I wonder if you love me and know how much I love you. Today you completely melted my heart. Daddy was playing with you and trying to keep you entertained while I was washing bottles. You were starting to get pretty fussy and your Dad thought you might need to eat (I knew you didn't) I suggested a few things to try and none of them seemed to soothe or calm you.

 Then your Dad said, "He just wants you." I didn't really believe him at first, I thought you might just want to nurse or maybe you were hot or bored. I finished up the bottles and right away picked you up. We sat down and rocked and you my sweet boy melted into me. You held me and I held you. We snuggled and I sang you all of your favorite songs. I patted your bottom to the rhythm of the rocking chair and smelled your new fluffy hair.

I love you so much Flint and I know that you love me. It's such an amazing feeling knowing that you are aware and you know who I am, I am no longer "just the boob". I love that you reach for me and hold onto me. I love that you are mine and I am yours. I love that you need me because I need you. You are just the sweetest thing I've ever held.

I love you,
Mama